Sex vs Love

I am currently single and yes I openly admit to “talking” to multiple women. One thing I totally over is lying. I am up front with everyone I “talk” to. My twitter page is a perfect displace of my relationship intent. I rarely use my DM. I prefer to put everything out there for everyone I’m dealing with to see. Now, I have told a few women that I do like them, which is the truth. I like multiple women. It’s only a few of the women that I do like that I would actually get into a relationship with. Commitment aside, I have no clue why I continue to attack the whole relationship thing this way. Maybe I don’t want, maybe subconsciously I’m not ready. Then I send out texts and BBMs to women, some in relationships already with every intention of making this person like me, purse me and fall for me. You will be surprised how many of my followers I have “pursed” and have pictures in my blackberry. Not bragging, just being honest. The whole Sex vs Love issue is something I no longer struggle with. I can now clearly detach all emotion, feeling and romantic interest from someone and have sex with her. Sex isn’t something I get into a relationship for. This might come as a major shock, but I don’t even count my partners anymore. It’s pointless. One of my friends asked me a couple weeks ago, “R.A. how many people have you slept with”. My response? I had none. I stopped counting a long time ago. This also has affected my thought process on Love. My past isn’t one of the cleanest in the world when it comes to sex. No, not std wise, I’ve been blessed enough to NEVER have one. It’s just that some of the acts I preformed and “adventures” that were had sexually in my 26 years are some that would shame most people. For a lack of a better term, a hoe. I had sex for rent money, no, seriously, among other things. True story, before the picnic in 08’ I went to one of the female’s apartment I was dealing with, NOT MY Girlfriend’s, had sex with her, then asked her for money for the picnic. Don’t believe me, ask my LB. That’s just one of the more PG13 stories. Do I regret having to do these things, not really, hell, I was having sex, I was good at it and at the end of it all, I was filling a need I had at the time. I haven’t had to live that life style in a couple of years and do not plan on going back. Finding love is what’s been my mission for the past couple of years. Sex is something that I’ve had a lot of, I know I’m not missing out on anything if I go without it for ia few. Hopefully I’ll be able to find it soon, Love and Sex.